Its almost 3 months since my last update and its only 9 days to go before we ride into 2011...
At the beginning of my entries, i did mention about some strained relationships with family and friends and i said that i believe God will make a way for things to get better.. and He did just that.
My relationship with family members and friends which were strained have all worked out and its been good... Like it is written :"All things work together for the good of those who love Him".
As for my walk with God, i know i did slide a little from the path but i am back on it.. and nothing nor no one can take Him away from me.. We are all humans and we do make mistakes .. but i know for sure that I love my Jesus and i know He loves me tooo much... so I will hold my head up high and walk with Him for I know I am His child and He is my Father!
Right now, its 3 days to Christmas and i have got loads of stuff to do...
SO take care and Merry Christmas all...
Have a blessed Christmas and an awesome New Year....
Cant wait for 2011...
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Updates
Hey peeps
I know i havent updated my blog in a while.Well as usual, my life is like a roller coster and i am enjoying the ride.
My walk with God is being strengthen day by day. I am learning to rest in God and believe me.. I am learning.. Its not easy you know... especially when you are so used to having control over things.
My work is great and i believe that everything happens for a reason, so I know i am here for a reason and a greater purpose.
Church is awesome, and i am back at leading worship after taking almost 9 months break/sabbatical leave. I also wrote my 6th song early this month and its the best song i have written so far (my feelings la).
I attended a worship conference/concert a week ago and i must say i learn a few things about worshipping God and knowing Him. I did some research a few days ago, and found some great insights into songwriting.
We are always fond of listening to other people say this and that about God and His goodness that we have become so adaptive to it. We believe what other people say He is... and we end up just hearing rumours of God. Though they may be true... but wouldnt it be better if we found out about God ourself, rather than hearing it from someone else. Thanks to Sidney Mohede & Glenn Packiam for opening my eyes to this wonderful insight.
I have started to embark on my journey to know Him more.. and i also enroll online to a bible college where i am learning about His word day in and day out.
Anyway.. gotta go home soon, so will catch up soon k...
Take care.
Love
Carol
I know i havent updated my blog in a while.Well as usual, my life is like a roller coster and i am enjoying the ride.
My walk with God is being strengthen day by day. I am learning to rest in God and believe me.. I am learning.. Its not easy you know... especially when you are so used to having control over things.
My work is great and i believe that everything happens for a reason, so I know i am here for a reason and a greater purpose.
Church is awesome, and i am back at leading worship after taking almost 9 months break/sabbatical leave. I also wrote my 6th song early this month and its the best song i have written so far (my feelings la).
I attended a worship conference/concert a week ago and i must say i learn a few things about worshipping God and knowing Him. I did some research a few days ago, and found some great insights into songwriting.
We are always fond of listening to other people say this and that about God and His goodness that we have become so adaptive to it. We believe what other people say He is... and we end up just hearing rumours of God. Though they may be true... but wouldnt it be better if we found out about God ourself, rather than hearing it from someone else. Thanks to Sidney Mohede & Glenn Packiam for opening my eyes to this wonderful insight.
I have started to embark on my journey to know Him more.. and i also enroll online to a bible college where i am learning about His word day in and day out.
Anyway.. gotta go home soon, so will catch up soon k...
Take care.
Love
Carol
Monday, August 16, 2010
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Follow Up - My weekend!
What can i say, its the 10th of June.. its been 1 month and 4 days since i last smoked... and i can safely say i am not gonna take up that habit anymore..thats my promise to God.. and i dont think He is gonna like it if i dont keep my promise... :)
Remember the guy i spoke about earlier, well, it turns out that it was a scam afterall.. but i thank God that He gave me wisdom and strength to overcome this... I knew it was a scam and i wanted proof and i got it.. well, at least i didnt get my heart broken as i didnt give my heart fully to that guy.. i gave it to God.. and God never disappoints you. It was fun while it lasted.
Things really happen for a reason.. i dont know why but i do know that God is still in control.. i am not planning to take back the steering wheel from Him at any point of time. I spoke to a family last Sunday and as i arrive at the house, i just knew that i needed to speak to them about God's goodness in my life and to assure them that God is in control IF we allow Him to be.. and i believe that they were blessed.
Lat weekend was really a hectic but enjoyable weekend for me.. It was my best friend's birthday on sat and also my step brother's birthday. I started with waking up late on saturday morning and then going for late lunch with my dad and stepmum. I then headed to Gombak to meet up with some friends before meeting the birthday boy (my bestfriend). It is always fun hanging out with him, and i was the only indian there though i never felt the difference. We went up to the look out point in Ampang, had an awesome dinner, made the birthday boy give a speech and then drove to kepong for mamak session where they ate the moist chocolate cake i brought. I am so glad he liked the gift i got him and he looked awesome in it! The next day, i was off to church and had to leave halfway to fetch my dad as the car he was working on, stalled on him. Reached in time for the message and i must say that the message was amazing!.
Had lunch, reached home and had about an hours sleep before heading out again, this time to Klang, where i spoke to a family about God's goodness. After that, met up with my dad, stepmum, stepbrother, my Pastor and his family to have dinner in a restaurant in Klang to celerate my step brother's birthday.
By the time i got home.. i was just waiting to get on the bed and snooze into dreamland.. coz on Monday, i was off to work and then to my Dad's place for dinner as it was his birthday... talk about a hectic weekend.. wow!
I love my life!!!
Remember the guy i spoke about earlier, well, it turns out that it was a scam afterall.. but i thank God that He gave me wisdom and strength to overcome this... I knew it was a scam and i wanted proof and i got it.. well, at least i didnt get my heart broken as i didnt give my heart fully to that guy.. i gave it to God.. and God never disappoints you. It was fun while it lasted.
Things really happen for a reason.. i dont know why but i do know that God is still in control.. i am not planning to take back the steering wheel from Him at any point of time. I spoke to a family last Sunday and as i arrive at the house, i just knew that i needed to speak to them about God's goodness in my life and to assure them that God is in control IF we allow Him to be.. and i believe that they were blessed.
Lat weekend was really a hectic but enjoyable weekend for me.. It was my best friend's birthday on sat and also my step brother's birthday. I started with waking up late on saturday morning and then going for late lunch with my dad and stepmum. I then headed to Gombak to meet up with some friends before meeting the birthday boy (my bestfriend). It is always fun hanging out with him, and i was the only indian there though i never felt the difference. We went up to the look out point in Ampang, had an awesome dinner, made the birthday boy give a speech and then drove to kepong for mamak session where they ate the moist chocolate cake i brought. I am so glad he liked the gift i got him and he looked awesome in it! The next day, i was off to church and had to leave halfway to fetch my dad as the car he was working on, stalled on him. Reached in time for the message and i must say that the message was amazing!.
Had lunch, reached home and had about an hours sleep before heading out again, this time to Klang, where i spoke to a family about God's goodness. After that, met up with my dad, stepmum, stepbrother, my Pastor and his family to have dinner in a restaurant in Klang to celerate my step brother's birthday.
By the time i got home.. i was just waiting to get on the bed and snooze into dreamland.. coz on Monday, i was off to work and then to my Dad's place for dinner as it was his birthday... talk about a hectic weekend.. wow!
I love my life!!!
Monday, May 17, 2010
New Role, New Beginnings..
Well its been a while...
I am in the midst of transitioning into my new position in the workplace.. and been really busy with stuff. Love my job and love the challenge though sometimes its a bit scary..
As for my personal life.. things are taking a 180 degree turn for the good... and i am loving every moment of it.
Firstly, my weekly sessions spent praying, learning and talking to God has totally paid off as i feel more in tune with what God wants in my life... to bless His name.
On the 6th (Wednesday) after my session, the moment i entered my car, i lit my ciggarette and was puffing away.. then it hit me.. I looked at the ciggi, i looked up to the heavens and i said.. " I always told You i will quit but i keep on saying wait, wait and wait... well You know what... I am not gonna let You wait any longer.. This is my last stick of ciggarette and i know i cannot do it with my own strength coz i am weak..but i know i can do it only with Your help.. so Lord, help me!" Poof.. the ciggi is out the window and outta my life.. its been 13 days since that day and i thank God He has helped me not have the urge to smoke.
On Monday, 3rd May, I met someone online and i was instantly attracted, not only to his looks but the person himself... we started chatting on MSN, calling each other everyday.. since he is in UK.. and the truth is.. i really really like him.. and the best, so does he. He likes big women and i fit into that category instantly.. As for the scams u hear online, well, I am no doubt a little skeptical as i dont want to get my heart broken but life is about taking risks sometimes, right?
Well i will know soon enough, as he is planning to come to Malaysia on the 29th of this month.
I know i have a lot more work to do when it comes to glorifying God and i am working towards it.. its not easy, but its also not that difficult once we realise that we are not in control but rather God is steering that wheel.
Ok.. time to do work.. Chiow peeps!
Some photos for ur enjoyment!
I am in the midst of transitioning into my new position in the workplace.. and been really busy with stuff. Love my job and love the challenge though sometimes its a bit scary..
As for my personal life.. things are taking a 180 degree turn for the good... and i am loving every moment of it.
Firstly, my weekly sessions spent praying, learning and talking to God has totally paid off as i feel more in tune with what God wants in my life... to bless His name.
On the 6th (Wednesday) after my session, the moment i entered my car, i lit my ciggarette and was puffing away.. then it hit me.. I looked at the ciggi, i looked up to the heavens and i said.. " I always told You i will quit but i keep on saying wait, wait and wait... well You know what... I am not gonna let You wait any longer.. This is my last stick of ciggarette and i know i cannot do it with my own strength coz i am weak..but i know i can do it only with Your help.. so Lord, help me!" Poof.. the ciggi is out the window and outta my life.. its been 13 days since that day and i thank God He has helped me not have the urge to smoke.
On Monday, 3rd May, I met someone online and i was instantly attracted, not only to his looks but the person himself... we started chatting on MSN, calling each other everyday.. since he is in UK.. and the truth is.. i really really like him.. and the best, so does he. He likes big women and i fit into that category instantly.. As for the scams u hear online, well, I am no doubt a little skeptical as i dont want to get my heart broken but life is about taking risks sometimes, right?
Well i will know soon enough, as he is planning to come to Malaysia on the 29th of this month.
I know i have a lot more work to do when it comes to glorifying God and i am working towards it.. its not easy, but its also not that difficult once we realise that we are not in control but rather God is steering that wheel.
Ok.. time to do work.. Chiow peeps!
Some photos for ur enjoyment!
Friday, April 30, 2010
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Struggles, Choices?
I have nothing much to say but that I love my Jesus, i love the people around me...
I will be going thro a change in my workplace and though i feel a little scared, but i am confident that it will be a good change and that God will see me thru each and everyday.
Someone bought me a journal and i totally love it. It is helping me to write down my daily struggles and obstacles and also is motivating me to go forward so that i can reach and touch God's heart.
Right now, my biggest struggle is quitting smoking... I know i only started like around 3-4 years ago but it is difficult to just quit like that and i will one day stop for good.. I know it. I believe it.
Every other weekend i spend my time listening to the awesome sounds of a band i fell in love with.. Just sitting there and listening to them play all my favourite songs makes me feel calm, peaceful and happy.
Though i only go to church once a week, the people in church are my second family and i truly love the,.. though we are a small congregation (30 ppl), the unity and love we have is genuine to a certain extend. Being in church with these people makes my weekend complete and whole.
Oppss... cant write anymore... need to start my work now..
Until then,
Carol
I will be going thro a change in my workplace and though i feel a little scared, but i am confident that it will be a good change and that God will see me thru each and everyday.
Someone bought me a journal and i totally love it. It is helping me to write down my daily struggles and obstacles and also is motivating me to go forward so that i can reach and touch God's heart.
Right now, my biggest struggle is quitting smoking... I know i only started like around 3-4 years ago but it is difficult to just quit like that and i will one day stop for good.. I know it. I believe it.
Every other weekend i spend my time listening to the awesome sounds of a band i fell in love with.. Just sitting there and listening to them play all my favourite songs makes me feel calm, peaceful and happy.
Though i only go to church once a week, the people in church are my second family and i truly love the,.. though we are a small congregation (30 ppl), the unity and love we have is genuine to a certain extend. Being in church with these people makes my weekend complete and whole.
Oppss... cant write anymore... need to start my work now..
Until then,
Carol
Sunday, April 4, 2010
What's goin on?
Where do i begin... I started blogging a few years ago and decided to remove and delete my entire blog as i felt that it got too anonying when people started judging you for what you write.
I mean, a blog was originally created as means for people to express their feelings and write whatever they want... but most blogs nowadays are just ways to sell things and make money!
Whatever it is, i have decided i want to write again, even if it is just one sentence.. i will write what i feel.. so if you are gonna be offended by what i write.. please leave this page.. i mean it.
I am 29 this December and i must say that i have had my share of ups and downs... from being lonely and insecure to happy and confident, from hating my life to loving it everyday, from feeling like God was never there to knowing He is beside me all the way.
I have always made my life an open book and people can read me easily and sometimes (most of the times, actually) people use that against me.. it hurts but then again, i made my life an open book, so i cant blame them.
I am not an angel and i have hurt a lot of people and i have realized this, early this year. It caused me to lose a lot of loved ones but i am sure that things will get better. 2010 marks a new beginning for me, taking my life to greater heights and learning to say No when its No.
I am not saying that i am evil as well.. i mean, who is perfect? I love my family and friends and i would want to do anything to make them happy. I didnt care if i was hurting inside, as long as they were happy, i would tag along to their demands... then i realised that by doing so, i was making them feel hurt wih me so this year onwards.. if i am not happy to do what they want to do, i wont do it... coz i have to please myself first before i can do anything for them.
I am glad to say i have a few friends who have been by my side thru my ups and downs and i totally love them to bitz for it... I would lay down my life for them..seriously... namely three of them... My two gals who is always there even though we seldom hang out, but we talk almost everyday thru skype, msn or even phonecalls.. even if it is a single shoutout like "Hello" or "Woman".. i know i can count on them no matter what.
And then there this guy who seems to be my soulmate or angel (i dont know what they call it) but he is there for me always whenever i am down... we may not talk to each other for months, but on that day that i am down and feeling sad or lonely, he will call.. and from the tone of my voice, he will know something is wrong... its the same with me.. the moment i see him or hear his voice, i will know if something is wrong.. and we are always able to cheer each other up no matter what.
With all said and done, i know this year is the year of my new life... New beginnings in workplace, with God and with family and friends... I am a different me but still me! Make sense? Hahahaha... I love my new haircut :) ... I love myself, i love my life and everyone around me...
Most of all, i love my Jesus and nothing nor no one can take Him away from me!
Signing off,
Carol
I mean, a blog was originally created as means for people to express their feelings and write whatever they want... but most blogs nowadays are just ways to sell things and make money!
Whatever it is, i have decided i want to write again, even if it is just one sentence.. i will write what i feel.. so if you are gonna be offended by what i write.. please leave this page.. i mean it.
I am 29 this December and i must say that i have had my share of ups and downs... from being lonely and insecure to happy and confident, from hating my life to loving it everyday, from feeling like God was never there to knowing He is beside me all the way.
I have always made my life an open book and people can read me easily and sometimes (most of the times, actually) people use that against me.. it hurts but then again, i made my life an open book, so i cant blame them.
I am not an angel and i have hurt a lot of people and i have realized this, early this year. It caused me to lose a lot of loved ones but i am sure that things will get better. 2010 marks a new beginning for me, taking my life to greater heights and learning to say No when its No.
I am not saying that i am evil as well.. i mean, who is perfect? I love my family and friends and i would want to do anything to make them happy. I didnt care if i was hurting inside, as long as they were happy, i would tag along to their demands... then i realised that by doing so, i was making them feel hurt wih me so this year onwards.. if i am not happy to do what they want to do, i wont do it... coz i have to please myself first before i can do anything for them.
I am glad to say i have a few friends who have been by my side thru my ups and downs and i totally love them to bitz for it... I would lay down my life for them..seriously... namely three of them... My two gals who is always there even though we seldom hang out, but we talk almost everyday thru skype, msn or even phonecalls.. even if it is a single shoutout like "Hello" or "Woman".. i know i can count on them no matter what.
And then there this guy who seems to be my soulmate or angel (i dont know what they call it) but he is there for me always whenever i am down... we may not talk to each other for months, but on that day that i am down and feeling sad or lonely, he will call.. and from the tone of my voice, he will know something is wrong... its the same with me.. the moment i see him or hear his voice, i will know if something is wrong.. and we are always able to cheer each other up no matter what.
With all said and done, i know this year is the year of my new life... New beginnings in workplace, with God and with family and friends... I am a different me but still me! Make sense? Hahahaha... I love my new haircut :) ... I love myself, i love my life and everyone around me...
Most of all, i love my Jesus and nothing nor no one can take Him away from me!
Signing off,
Carol
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